“I AM wealthy, poor, healthy, sick, free, confined were first of all impressions or conditions felt before they became visible expressions. Your world is your consciousness objectified.
Waste no time trying to change the outside; change the within or the impression; and the without or expression will take care of itself. When the truth of this statement dawns upon you, you will know that you have found the lost word or the key to every door. I AM (your consciousness) is the magical lost word which was made flesh in the likeness of that which you are conscious
of being” – Neville Goddard
Julia and I joined the emPower Posi(tive) music festival this weekend. We were fortunate and honored to have our song,
“I Am Here” nominated for an award in the Uniting category.
It was a rewarding conference with great workshops and the chance to expand our community. One of the speakers I found very moving was David Ault. He said that people often say to him, all of these positive outlooks and affirmations are great but how do I use them in my life? So by way of giving us a practical tool, he told us about Neville Goddard’s book Power of Imagination. David pointed out that the phrase, “What’s done is done,” is not accurate. He asked us to go back to an event early in our lives that perhaps we wish had not happened or had gone another way. David said he picked an event where he felt “incredibly out of integrity.”
The ground rules for this re-Imagining were:
- Finding value in the event.
- You can’t change the free will of the individual in that memory. That is, you can’t have them change their action(s). Instead, we are free to revise our response.
- Surround this process with compassion.
- Commit to the process. Refine and Resolve.
Since we carry the past with us here in this moment, by going back and either changing our action/reaction in our mind, we can gain understanding and free ourselves up. We can also have our present self go back to ourselves then and whisper comfort and perspective or just be there for support.
I started with one memory, which led me to others. The theme was similar in all of them: I didn’t know what to do and felt powerless.
When I was fourteen, after the academy awards, the phone rang and mom answered it. My grandmother had passed away. My sister was in college and my dad was working late. When he came in I stood in the hallway where I was able to see the front door. Mom told him and he literally crumbled. Here was the pillar of strength that held us all up falling in his grief and I was not able to do or say anything to comfort or support him. I stood there rooted to the spot feeling powerless and angry at myself for not being able to change or alleviate his suffering.
If I were to re-imagine this scene, I would go back as I am now, hug and guide myself to my dad and just hold him.
So many things happen early on that we then carry with us on the subconscious level.
I could see how these memories of feeling powerless, wishing I knew what to say or do, led to some of my favorite neurotic behaviors and beliefs. These in turn have blocked my peace and success on certain levels. However, I also see how they have urged me to cultivate compassion with a desire to alleviate suffering through any means at my disposal. This translated into cultivating a strong sense of humor, a desire to make people laugh, to sing, write, compose and eventually, to listen.
This exercise was not to have us wallow in our past misery but to illuminate our understanding so we can be free in this moment.
The amazing thing for me is when despite the rantings of my inner-saboteur, I carry on and connect creatively to what I have to offer.
“When I step out of the story then I get the chance to see,
There’s a bigger picture here; something more than me.
I am here and I am needed. I will stand up and be greeted by what comes my way. I will fill my day with love.” – The Levins
I am happy to say that Julia and I won the Posi award for Uniting. It was a great honor and one that reflects the bond between us. Standing in our power, we know what to do, even if it is just in this moment.
May all the tools we collect along the way, allow us to be here for ourselves and for one another.
“A change of feeling is a change of destiny.” – Neville Goddard